Paul Moses – All Heart
NAME: Paul Moses
LOCATION: Richmond Hill, Australia
Antiques and Homewares Business Owner
I was born Paul Russell on 3rd of September 1957 at Camperdown, in Sydney.
My mother was 18 years old when she brought me into this world and my father was 20. I was raised with my younger brother in a young family housing commission suburb overlooking Manly. Life was disciplined, but always an adventure with plenty of mates. School was hard work: I did not know then but was later diagnosed with dyslexia, and so I was treated as a retard.
My father one Sunday morning, after washing his EH Holden, came inside and died of heart failure. It was as if the curtains had come down awaiting the next scene, which was to be very different to the first 8 years.
I felt a great responsibility toward my saddened mother, who worked long hours to keep us, but had lost the spring in her step, and a brother who did not seem to be able to digest where we were at.
At 19 I had started an apprenticeship with my father doing panel beating and to earn extra money, worked SP bookmaking at the back of a pub. Here my eyes opened up to gambling, organised crime and corruption that was at all levels of society – in fact I had come to an understanding that those we knew were in organised crime were at least honest, they didn’t hide where they were at, whereas some others pretended to be police, politicians, business people, charities and so on. At one point I was offered a well-paid future and turned it down – I just knew I did not want to spend my life looking over my shoulder.
I was taken, somewhere between the ages of 8 and 9, to my father’s old Rugby club and played in a predominantly Aboriginal team who were fun and amazing to watch, but I knew this was not for me – instead of making it about the game I was more not wanting to stand on players’ toes, as some of them could not afford boots.
My mother and grandmother were part Aboriginal and they brought a reality and understanding about the world that I appreciated, and was undeniably real. We would walk through Newtown or Redfern and my mother and grandmother were known and loved there. They would point out to me someone who was laying drunk on the footpath and say, ‘They had not always been like that, they just decided they couldn’t cope ‘ – it still would not hold my Grandmother back from saying to that person: ‘Get up and wake up to yourself’.
After a few years, my beautiful mother had a suitor whom she married and I was asked to take his surname, Moses.
We sold our humble house and bought a rather large house overlooking Sydney harbour and I was sent to a Boys’ Grammar school, where a whole new way of life was offered. Being the son of a panel beater was not readily accepted by some of the older teachers, but I made some great mates whom I still connect with.
At around 16 we were all given IQ tests and to everyone’s surprise I was actually in the genius levels, but at the same time I saw the devastation and jealousy of some of my class mates who had been put in the backward box, as I had been until that time.
Accordingly I did very well in the HSC exam and was accepted into law at University, but I still carried the pain of ridicule and not measuring up and feared having to read or speak out loud to a class and could not go through with University.
I had somehow held on to the notion that my way forward, and to be accepted, was through football. I had built a body that was strong and big, and I carried this on until I was confronted through injuries and by the truth of what I had already known at 8, that I was never meant to be in that arena.
After 20 years working in Melbourne and Sydney, I made a break and moved to the Byron Bay area with my beautiful partner, where we raised 3 children. We started a shop and then another in Bangalow, selling antiques and home wares, which was very successful and was a forerunner in the busy retail town it is today.
In my early 50s what had killed my father finally caught up to me, and my heart started to fail. But unlike my father I had support medically, and from my now wife and Serge Benhayon, his family and people that are associated with Serge and Universal Medicine.
Today I have never been in better health, so say my body and my doctor. I have a deeply loving relationship with my gorgeous wife and 5 beautiful children and 3 grandchildren. I run a successful shop in Newrybar with my daughter and am an active participant in the community, chairing and holding meetings in our local hall with the purpose being all about people and coming together to support each other for our future.
As family and friends we love to celebrate together, including my ex-partner.